Just some things that I thought of...most likely when I was alone, in the car, or in the shower...I get inspired in the wierdest of places.
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Thursday, September 04, 2003
Rumors...
Yes, I was working a little bit with html...though in the most basic way possible...courtesy of geocities. Check out the website here if you want. I'm warning you, it sucks.
And yes, I know...an html editor from geocities...how bad can I be? Well, I'm cheap, but I do what I need to to get what I want. It's my nature...speaking of which...
Here's my profile concerning that psych test you took. I took that about 4 years ago and never forgot what I was.
Interesting side note...on the bottom of the page, where it details relationships to other types, Chris' and mine are listed as "pals." (I shit you not...check it out).
2:25 PM
Thursday, April 03, 2003
incompleted as of yet...but it's interesting enough that I might pick it up again:
Sitting on the bed, in this room
thinking about yesterday
Was it al a great mistake?
Something to fake the pain away?
He's opened a door and flooded with
warmth, but is it unwelcomed
Because he's afraid of harm?
6:27 PM
Hear me
Squeaking wheels inside my head
Let me know that I'm not dead
See me
Hammer me down into the wood
All in the sake of the common good
Touch me
Scratches and bruises upon my skin
Turning your hate for me within
Taste me
The sweet and sour flavor distasteful
Happy then anger turns me hateful
Smell me
Desperation wreaks from my pores
So strong you've finally closed the doors
6:23 PM
Rapture
I can feel the heat of every decision
It burns my soul with minute precision
You said that you would be my friend
But now I can't take it anymore and it all must end
Everyone loves you and I don't know why
You help everyone but me to fly
Tell me why, give me one reason why
I shouldn't let go and embrace the cold
I need to be free of all the pain
but you won't help and tell me why
I need to let go and embrace the cold
This life of mind is getting so old
(there is more...just haven't finished it, or can't find the pages. :) )
6:20 PM
Sunday, March 02, 2003
Leave You Alone
I heard about the other day
All the things you used to say
Talking shit behind my back
Sorry, I ain't having that
You pretend that everything's okay
Thinking it's a sunny day
I don't know about you no more
Here's your jacket and here's the door
You were all that's right
All those perfect nights
Together all alone
Then you flipped on me
How could it be
I've gotta leave you alone
Just when did everything change?
Sunny days go to rain
When did this all begin?
Where the hell have you been?
I told you I'm not playing games
I'm expecting you to do the same
I don't know about you no more
Here's your jacket and here's the door
You were all that's right
All those perfect nights
Together all alone
Then you flipped on me
How could it be
You're finding yourself alone
I know about the things you did
And I don't really need this shit
You think everything's alright
We'll see about that tonight
You said you had feelings for him
Did they all go away?
I'm stepping out on my own
I've got nothing left to say
I don't know about you no more
Here's your jacket and here's the door
You were all that's right
All those perfect nights
Together all alone
Then you flipped on me
How could it be
I've gotta leave you alone
2:41 PM
Tuesday, February 25, 2003
Salvage
Innocent words turn to those of deception
Red and mistrust color the reception
Once it's done, shame on me
Second time, it occurs to be
That nothing is quite as it seemed
And so far all the wreckage I can see
Would I have known had they turned you down?
Can I make everything normal now?
All I really want is something
That runs from me every time
I get so close and it pains me
That I can't seem to make you mine
I'm afraid of you and what you might say
Cuz you're afraid of me and what I might say
It makes no sense and I wish I could fix it
But it takes two, and I don't know if we could mix it
The perfect mix of respect and love and space we need
But deep inside all I do is bleed
I held you there and so did he
How many people are in this "we" ?
All I really want is something
That runs from me every time
I get so close and it pains me
That I can't seem to make you mine
You invite these other people just to hide from me
So I sit and wiat patiently for our privacy
We could hold each other and lay on the couch
Kissing until we forgot what we were talking about
They kissed you to...was it better than me?
Though my kisses have more meaning
I thought we were meant to be
But you gave your feelings so easily
All I really want is something
That runs from me every time
I get so close and it pains me
That I can't seem to make you mine
10:22 PM
Thursday, December 26, 2002
Left for Dead
My brain has killed my heart and left it for dead
I no longer have control of my head
The thoughts I have are no longer my own
I could have prevented this had I but known
That the tales and fortunes were ruling my life
And now I can't help but think I live a lie
And when I live truth I get nothing but jokes
And piece by piece the destruction of hope
Love has raped me and left me for dead
It cares not what was left unsaid
To gasp and dream the name of one's love
To cry for mercy from Heaven above
The simple things of life aren't free
'Cause when I get so close it's taken from me
Love had wandered into my arms
And I have fallen for yet another's charms
My love has destroyed my brain and left it for dead
I'm terrorized of the lies that I've led
The wonders of when others will finally catch on
And the obstacles that I must tread upon
They bring nothing but pain and love and laughter
But in the end it's hurt that comes after
I've lost control of my will and my thoughts
Which part, if any, will survive this onslaught?
11:06 AM
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